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i .. Feel. so many things. i think im getting another cold.
Her. Me. Us. .. ugh. Since new years things just havent been the same. i cant get what she said out of my head. and she keeps bringing it up and making a big deal of things that dont matter and misreading things. she asked me if i was happy today... after telling me that when i text her alot she feels like things are good and when i dont she feels like i have apprehensions about our relationships. CANT I JUST NOT TEXT YOU SOMETIMES! just because i dont text 24-7 doesnt mean something is wrong.. it means im living.. i told her im over it and to stop bringing it up.. but am i. .. i dono what she wants.. i mean.. its pretty CLEAR what she wants .. i just dont know if i can give that to her..
Lets talk ex. Walking down the narrow path to red square on the way to class.. no one else is on it.. exept for her.. we pretend we dont see eachother, like every other encounter, and walk past looking down in opposite directions.. time lapse.. walking back from class... same small path.. and coming from the opposite direction.... you guest it.. so i said fuck it.. ... and when she came near.... i looked at her.... im talked to her... i said... so do you live up here now (north campus).. cause ive past you like three times today.. .. she stops, dead in her tracks. i think she was in total shock i talked to her. then she managed to utter that yes, she just moved into edens... the hall right next to mine. . .. then she hugged me.... then asked how i was.. i said great.. i asked her ... she said something that i didnt really pay attention too.. then to make things better blair comes walking up the path,, with a look o complete shock on her face.. stops and says.. hey.. thank god she came cause i dono how i would have left that convo... but i figured that if she lived by me, i was going to be seeing/passing her alot and i am sick of the fucking bullshit games, so i just said somehting so now when we pass we can maybe at least acknowledge eachother without pretending to not see eachother... and the weirdest part... it wasnt akward talking to her at all really... because im over it.. ive moved on..... forgiven
ive been struggling with finding another class for my schedual and i sighned up for a womens studies class... it sounded super interesting.. then i got the syllabus and thought i was going to dye, so i decided to not take it.. i mean i already have three classes and that would have been way alot to handel so im glad i decided against it..
So. As of now, im taking Honors Multicultural studies 2. Honors Psychologys. And English fucking 101. im sick of all the rain here.
Timed mile in track on friday.. ran a 6:56... eh.
seeing you last time.... it really made me miss you... even those few minutes of talking.. i do miss you.. i just dont know what to do.. i hope whatever is going on with taylor and i is resovled soon becasue right now its ridiculous..
It was SEX week at my school this week.. me and the girls went to all the events.. tonight.. the finally was Talk sex with Sue johanson!! at WWU.. it was amazing she is so great.. i think its good for me to go to the things i did because maybe it will help me with my.... issues.
Our school cut our football team.. what kind of college is one with out a football team.. ha.
shit. 
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